Right now cause i barely go back to my room upstairs i spend my time finally experiencing my spanking new PS3. Sadly, i dont have a HD-ready TV, so the graphics arent as sharp and pretty as they are meant to be. BUT, wireless controllers are indeed kick-ass.

I was kinda sad that i couldnt get the jap version of Devil May Cry 4, but i only wanted it in jap for the stupid reason being that L'arc does the opening(english ver has an english song). But i'm settling fine with the english version for now. Its kinda fun using Nero and otherwise its really typical hack and slash. Usually i gotta stay up till 6am now while the maid sleeps, cause i gotta help my mom to the commote every now and then, and she wants the maid to get some rest so i gotta do the graveyard shift and sleep during the day. so my late nights are spent playing and bit of DMC4.

I also finally wanted FF7AC Complete. never fails to entertain me. and teh FF13 demo. hell i want that game. :DDDD

finally tomorrow is sat.
sorry this blog is getting so damm random.
but i need a distraction from my depressing household

I FINALLY got my ps3 today. its long overdue actually but i finally went down to taka to get it. I got Assasins Creed and Devil May Cry 4 to go along with it, but i'm really more looking forward to trying out the FF13 demo than anything else.

Aside from those i had to get a new charger for my nintendo DS, and i blew some more cash at kinokuniya on 07-ghost vol 8, FMA 22 and Nurarihyon no mago 5. got some sausages for mom from cold storage as well, and finally got my Riku static arts exchanged cause the one i first purchased was kinda not in good condition. I had to hold off temptations to shop at the Anime House, and i told myself to save those shoppings for the next japan trip.

Also, back home i have been watching the first 2 eps of "I'm a Celebrity, Get me out of here". Its really just Surviour with celebs but its so ridiculous its good. Or rather, it was just really amusing watching the soap opera that was celeb couple spencer and heidi pratt fussing over hairspray, and getting baptised be the river. I also have decided to start watch Prison Break, starting from season one.

now what i need is a damn LCD TV.

when i look back at my life i really feel like i have wasted a lot of time....
first i spent 20 years of my life studying stuff i never ended up using. then, though there were some periods of precious rests and holidays, wasted 3 years of my life slogging away in a company with barely any benefits, not to mention lousy pay. Okay so not all time was useless - i did learn some usefull things, but the hours i spent for them doesnt seem to justify. Then now both my parents are sick, and i need to stay home most of the time to help out. It hurts to see them both like that, and its worse when my dad, who has a compromised brain due to his major stroke, could actually say "mum much pain. much pain". I know i shouldnt be, but sometimes i feel kinda miserable at home. Not because that i can only go out at 2pm and must be back by 7.30pm, and that i have to contribute to the housework and looking after both parents more, but just looking at them makes me feel very sick and tired and all that... i cant find any inspiration to draw lately as well, and i feel lethargic the whole day...at least now i'm so tired i can really sleep easily at night...demo nebusoku de doushiou?

also, my maid is totally overplaying that celine dion "because you love me" song in the house. i hate that song.-_- but she loves it so much...what can i say..shes a hopeless romantic...everything that i'm not...

now all i can do is look forward to saturdays again. my only salvation....T_T

No no, not my dad.
Instead, my riding buddies and i nearly got one when all our horses freaked out on us at the end of the lesson as we were leaving the arena... this is the first time i actually experienced a horse rear...with me on top. T_T. Lil Bro had his own problems calming down goldsmith, and erika got probably got a bad shock when mimo started running. It was pretty much a chain reaction. Goldsmith started acting up, causing my ride - sonia(who was in a pretty frisky mood then as well) to follow suit in getting overly excited. Seeing the "excitement", Mimo decided to run as well. I had no time to even look how Maverick reacted, cause all i could do was concentrate on keeping my balance and make sure i didnt crash into the nearby horses, tree and bench. The horses were still nervous even after we managed to jump off, and mike and daniel had to help us settle them down and bring them back. hmm...its been a while since such things happened. HOWEVER, though it was a little scary for awhile, it felt exciting after it was all over. It was a strange sense of satisfaction to know that we actually managed to stay on with no casualties. :) Good job everyone. I must say though, sonia's canter before the little accident was totally awesome.

dad goes home tomorrow. hurray? it also marks the restart on my no-life life, cause mom wants me to help out more in the house. basically being the part time maid...

i'm still camping at the hospital.
not sure how much longer i need to stay there cause they noticed another infection 2 days before he was due to discharge. The idiotic thing was it was only ONE nurse who noticed it and not the doctor. plus, one of the doctors that came in failed to check it properly and we had to take a photo of it to show him. God knows how long the infection was there. Sometimes i really dont know if i want to love or hate alexandra hospital. sometimes i feel like i want to strangle some ppl there.

anyway, i managed to get my maid to bring me my psp charger so i at least get SOME entertainment there. It hurts to have no internet for over a week. cant seem to get my psp to get connected to any hotspots either, and i cant leave the hospital room for too long(mom's rules.:()

Its not to bad staying there, but sometimes its tiring cause in hospitals you never get to sleep in peace with nurses comeing in at 2am and 5 am in the morning. so my daily routine is wake up, feed dad, sleep, feed dad lunch, sleep and feed dad dinner, TV then sleep. :P Once in a while at night i sneak out to achorpoint mall, but theres nothing much to do there except checking out comics connection and poh kim.

I DID however get my hands of FFAC complete together with the FF13 demo(mom sponsored it kekekke) so i cant wait to try it out on my PS3, when i finally get to buy it. But thats only when dad gets out of hospital.....

hmm, though i told nat that i'd be online on wed night, it turned out that my dad needed to be admitted to the hospital again so i couldnt get any internet access again (i'm using the polo club com nom :P) So as it turns out, there was a minor stroke and reoccurance of infections, so i'll be camping at the hospital for the next week until he's discharged. no...err, no internet for me until then. it sucks not to have a laptop in times like this...

otherwise, dispite the minor stroke, dad was not majorly affected, except that he seemed to talk a lot less and seems a lot more despondant and depressed. i'll see how it goes. get well soon papi!

goodbye computer, i wont see you till late next week at earliest....:(

nothing much.
have not been drawing, have not been doing anything.
i'll be finally buying my PS3 this month, plus an acer laptop as well.
dad seems to be having depression cause he suddenly stopped talking.
mom is still under chemo but is so far doing not too bad.
i'm somehow a bit frustrated cause due to looking after my parents, i can never go out for dinner with friends and my outing time is forever stuck from 2 - 7pm.
and my right eye is turning red....i dont know why.